March 2011
63 posts
“In art, in history man fights his fears, he wants to live forever, he is afraid...”
– Children of the Albatross by Anais Nin (via quote-book)
I'm a mess, I guess.
I think that sometimes I have multiple personalities in my head or something. Why do I stress myself out, literally to the point where I just have mental break downs over a TEST? AP Government for some reason lately has been SO hard for me, and I really don’t know why.
On one hand (one personality), I work myself up into a frenzy over these tests and stress over it for hours on end, days...
College.
It’s been on my mind a lot these past few days, especially with April quickly approaching and decisions having to be made.
I got rejected from UCR and UCSB, and who knows why Cal Poly hasn’t answered me back yet. I have been accepted to Fresno State.
As this month has gone on, more reasons have come to mind on why it’s a good idea to stay in town. It’s weird, because I...
“You really don’t know how beautiful a girl is until you meet her. Her...”
– Zac Efron
The Search For David's Heart
“Maybe the important thing isn’t to keep asking, ‘Why did David die?,’ but it’s to remember that we need to keep on living, because that’s what David would want.” - Danielle Panabaker as Darcy Deeton
I get so sad when I see all of these weight loss tumblrs, filled with pictures of girls who weigh nothing, and the negative thoughts that they write about themselves. Tumblrs who have tons of followers, because they encourage girls that they will never be good enough until they reach an unattainable standard, set to only destroy their self esteem, and themselves, both physically and mentally.
To...
My Love - Sara Bareilles
He bends his breath around my name and I am humbled. I feel small and plain, but his arms are angels by his side. You need not ask if they’re open, just how wide.
His lips are day and his skin is night.
Oooh, and with our love we conjure up the twilight. His fingers are music to my soul, and I feel his song play everywhere I go.
My love, my love is on his way. I can’t wait to see...
“There may be times when you feel like you may break, but it takes bending to...”
– Wyatt Graham
Peace.
It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart.
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This has been stuck in my head all day :)
Do you remember when we first met? I sure do. It was some time in early September. You were lazy about it, you made me wait around. I was so crazy about you I didn’t mind.
I was late for class, I locked my bike to yours. It wasn’t hard to find ‒ you painted flowers on it. I guess that I was afraid that if you rolled away, you might not roll back my direction real soon.
I was crazy...
Do you ever have those moments where you feel like nobody listens to you? Or where you feel ignored? Or where you feel unimportant?
Today, those moments seem to be happening a lot! I just love it :)
Leadership :)
So tonight at leadership we were given this list of 26 characteristics of what a leader should be. We discussed how those characteristics look in other peoples lives (I.E. “Can you think of anyone that does such and such?”) and then were asked to look at ourselves. This reminded me of the exercise in Francis Chan’s Crazy Love, which went like this:
You know the popular bible...
“Why would anyone want to isolate themselves from people who you could...”
– Victoria Justice
“But it’s not all about the exterior - it’s about what’s inside...”
– Victoria Justice
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“You can’t live a positive life with a negative mind.”
– Miley Cyrus. I love her.
These past few months have taught me so much.
Through hard times, I find myself always closest with God. Granted, I still have so much work to do and am far from God, but I just think my desire to know Him is so much greater. It’s a daily thing to make a choice to pray and read my Bible… One that I don’t make every day. Over these past few months I have had a lot of ups and...
“Take all of your wasted honor, every little past frustration. Fighting with the...”
– John Mayer
A friend told me today that I “really have a way with words.” A sweet thing to say, really, but I just don’t see it at all.
There’s so many things I want to say, but I can’t. So many thoughts have been running through my mind, especially after tonight, and I wish I could have some sort of words to sort all of them out.
I need some sort of renewed hope. Some...
If only.
When you try your best, but you don’t succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can’t replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you...
"In the shelter of each other, we will live. We...
Friday, everything I had been trying not to think about kind of came out all at once. It’s safe to say I was a mess. Saturday kind of got my mind off of things, especially babysitting Addy. She is the sweetest. Love her and her family!
I once read a quote that said something along the lines of, “true friends love you when you’re not lovable.” This is completely true,...
“Let me know that You hear me. Let me know Your touch. Let me know that You love...”
– Switchfoot
“Don’t rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be...”
– Stacey Charter
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Des chansons pour la semaine :)
Sleeping to Dream - Jason Mraz Broadripple is Burning - Margot and The Nuclear So and So’s Other Side of the World - KT Tunstall What I Wouldn’t Do - A Fine Frenzy Shadow Feet - Brooke Fraser Hundred - The Fray Wait Until Tomorrow - John Mayer Endlessly - Green River Ordinance Back to You - John Mayer Life in Technicolor - Coldplay A Hard Rain’s a...
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Earlier in the week, I was writing my editor’s closing for yearbook, and I got upset because I couldn’t fit in all of the people that I wanted to thank. I got tears in my eyes, which, looking back was a bit ridiculous, but at the time it made me sad to think that people would go un-mentioned on my section, because of a lack of room.
I’m feeling very loved this week, and...
“I’m never speaking up again; it only hurts me. Oh I’m never speaking...”
– John Mayer
Ahh!!
I am so happy!!
I love when I finally understand a concept. You know, that “Ah-ha!” moment.
I finally feel ahead of the game in my classes, which is just lovely, since I haven’t felt like that in probably a month. I love this feeling :)
Yay!!
Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
“You can only become truly accomplished at something you love. Don’t make...”
– Maya Angelou
“Go after her. Don’t sit there and wait for her to call; go after her...”
– I love the Stumble app.
:)
I had one of the best conversations tonight. Even though it may seem insignificant to some people, I’m so thankful to have had it.
God speaks at the perfect time, always :)
3.
Today marks exactly three months until graduation. Three months until summer. Three months until I have to have my plans for next year figured out. Three months until the end of one chapter and the beginning of another. Three months until the start of the rest of my life.
I’m just going to follow this quote that I came across earlier; “Let go and let God.”
“Happiness sneaks in through a door you didn’t know you left open.”
– :)
If I could be anywhere right now, it would be driving down PCH towards the Malibu state beaches 5 minutes past Zuma, with the wind blowing in my hair from my rolled down windows, seeing the mountains to my left filled with beautifully decorated mansions overlooking the ocean to my right, with the sun gleaming radiantly on every wave crashing on the shore.
Then once I got there, I could read my...
thestudyofhumanity:
Doing “heartfelt gestures” must not be in anymore. Doing things because you care must be “out of trend” because lately, I feel like I’m the only one doing nice things for others. Or maybe others are and I’m just not seeing it. Idk. All I know is that its quite pathetic waiting around. People only pretend like they care. They only say ‘thank you’ cause it’s the polite thing to...
Tonight.
Will be a long one. I’m going to do all of my homework that is due at some point this week, because I’m so tired of feeling like I’m playing “catch up” this month.
Luckily I have Pandora radio to keep me company :) That sounded creepy. You know what I mean.
Ah, here’s to a more relaxing week and a productive night tonight.
“Why put off tomorrow what...
“But as you go your own way, remember, do not be afraid, because you’re...”
– Matt Wertz 